Worth the Wait

I hate waiting.

I don't think I'm alone.  Now days, you can pay extra to have a pass to get to the front of the lines at amusement parks.  There are the "faster" car pool lanes.  There are the "call ahead" reservations at casual dining restaurants. There are options for shipping to you the next day. Our society has so much information at our finger tips, there is no more waiting for news in the morning.

But I've been waiting more than a decade. From the time that my hubby and I made the decision to have our own family until our adoption date.... it will be EXACTLY 10 years 9 months!  Everything on God's timing. 

Now that our date has been set just weeks away, everything is going so fast.  Today we meet with our caseworker and a permanency consultant to start signing paperwork. It's going to feel so official!  I think it's going to really hit home that we are crossing into the promise land.  God has been faithful. He planted a desire in my heart to be a mother.

 I remember all those years of infertility. It was very painful and depressing.  I still carry the scars but God has wrapped my heart in His palm. I remember calling out to Him just feeling so alone and hurt. I couldn't understand why He would plant this desire in me and not help me bring life into this world.  I just couldn't see beyond my tears that my beautiful daughter was already in this world. She was probably struggling, but He stayed with her. The Master Weaver, He wove our paths together and made our family quilt.

God plans are more beautiful and more delicately woven together than anything man could consider. God has been with me through the valleys and the mountains... and everywhere in-between.  I have to say, these three kiddos.... they worth waiting for... all of those days!

God has made us what we are. In Christ Jesus, God made us new people so that we would spend our lives doing the good things he had already planned for us to do.
Ephesians 2:10 ERV