God Songs

Today's sermon was about God Songs.  One of the worship team members shared how a song he heard the day he was baptized reaffirmed his decision to be baptized.  Hearing that song, brings back memories for him.

Well, for me, my song would be Prodigal (Casting Crowns)

Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again

Maybe it's because I've searched and wanted a real relationship with my earthly father for so long.  Maybe I don't feel worthy to be called daughter.  I for sure haven't felt wanted and feel like I was just a mere accident that happened when my parents were supposed to be separating. The only time that I remember him wanting to be with me was when he wasn't in a relationship. When he had no one else...

I've gone off on my own. I'm very much an independent and stubborn person. But on my own, I would find myself more broken. I'd find that I couldn't face the storms of life.

I need God. I need my earthly Father in my life. He keeps pursuing me, even when I stray away. He is loyal and He is patient.  He holds me and protects me.

I found that I have strayed again. Following different directions then where I should be going.  Doing things for what I may have originally thought were the right reasons, but really they were not.  I need to be in prayer. I need to be reading the bible more. I need a relationship with God. 

Church isn't a place where you get "Your God on". For me, it is a place where I connect in worship. It's a place to be filled up and energized. It's a place to be reminded of what I already know as truth and a place to help hold myself accountable for my relationship with God.