The Momma Moment

I admit, in some ways I can be very focused on helping my kiddos grow up. I get overly concerned about their education, manners, friendships, mannerisms, etc.  I want to help them to grow up and be somewhat organized people with honesty, integrity, perseverance, a good heart, unselfish, generous.... and I could just keep going on.

Mommas want what is best for the kids. They want their kiddos to grow up and be good people.   Sometimes it's trying to get there, that you stumble, trample, fight over or somehow mess it up.  Sometimes I get so busy that I overlook some of the best moments of being a momma or miss out on them because "I'm that mom on a mission!".

Thank you to my daughter who slowed me down a bit today.  My little peanut had a rough start to her morning today. She has actually had a few or emotional few days.  We were again just about to be late for school when she broke down in tears. "I want to be nice momma". (more tears).   "Oh, honey, you are nice. I love you. You'll get to school and see your friends and everything will be ok.  (insert hug) Ok. Now we have to get in the car."  (insert more sniffles here).

We got into the car and drove to school.  She was trying to get out of the car without being trampled by the three other kiddos in the car who were trying to not be tardy.  She gets out and comes to the passenger window.  I roll down the window and say "It's going to be ok sweetie, it's time to go to school". Then it happened.  Niagara Falls and Yosemite had nothing on this girl.  The tears just flowed down. "Momma I need to be BY you". Heart breaking and knowing it was one of those days where she just wasn't in the emotional place for anything else, I said "ok honey, get back in the car".

All day, my little peanut clung to me. The only time she seemed to leave my side was for the half hour when we visited her bestie to say "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!".  It took more than an hour to get her to go to sleep because she was so afraid I'd be gone.

Some of the moments today, she just held on to me and put her little head on my shoulder... well, those are some of the best moments of not of just today, but of life. Those tender moments where I just hold her, love her, and reaffirm to her that I am here for her.  Those are the momma moments that I had once dreamt of when I wanted to become a momma.  These moments melt away the chaos of life... leaving only what is completely precious.