His Children

I've had a lot of thoughts just roaming my mind lately. It's been kind of a nutty week. "Fostercare Land" is in one of those spots where everything is just really interesting. We are hitting a mark where decisions will need to start needing to be made. The point where things could head in one direction or another. And even if they make a decision, that doesn't mean that it will lead to that destination. It's a lot of patience. It's a lot of having to trust God that He is working on things and that He is on this throne and will make things all right. (I'm not talking about the right that I think is right, but the right that is ultimately the best for everyone -- His will kind of right).

I love having these children with me. Sometimes I lose my insight that I'm just lucky to have any time with them. I get a little greedy because I just love them so much. I need to do a better job remembering that I wanted to just love on them for however long I can and enjoy every moment. Sometimes, I think I just get afraid that they won't stay with me. That leads me to want to spend every precious moment with them and causes guilt when I'm away. I am lucky that I will be able to spend time in the twins' classrooms this year helping students with math work. I also am helping in the office one afternoon and going on field trips. I am blessed to drop them off and pick them up each day. I am blessed.

They are wonderful kids. The best kind of kids that I could ask for. I know that God picked them to be with me. We all just sort of mesh. We may not look a like, but we've learned so much about each other. It's so refreshing to learn more about their culture and share from mine. I love how they give me insight and their perspectives. It's fun to watch them learn about the world around us.

Yes, I love these children. I love how my princess will get up in the middle of the night and scratch her belly before walking into the bathroom. I love how my little man will answer "Right now?" when you say you are going to do something next week. I love how my peach laughs and can get such a "girly girl". They are good. They are HIS children. He loves them even more deeply that I can ever. I know that HE is working for their good. I know that HE has a purpose and a plan for them. I know that only HE can ultimately heal their pain and comfort them. HE sent HIS SON to die for them. It is amazing.


"I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me."
Isaiah 46:9