Patience

Patience IS love. Love IS patient.

Yikes.  It's hard to be patient.  The pastor was absolutely right... most of us confuse love with getting what we want when we want it. If you didn't get me what I wanted... you must not love me, right?  Patience.

Patience is hard. It's one of those things I'm quick to remind others to be careful in praying for.  Why?  Cause it seems like the only way to learn patience is to be tested with it. And let's face it, it's hard to learn to be patient.

Detours, waiting our turn, being placed on hold... all require extra patience.

My journey to becoming a parent has been a very long and drawn out one. It's been going on for more than a decade. We have taken several detours.  We tried on our own. We tried with infertility doctors. We looked into international and domestic adoptions. We were pushed (gently) down the path into becoming foster parents.  Although we have our kids, we still have the interruptions of having a system still being over our heads controlling a lot of how we do things. They just are not our kids yet... legally.  Some foster kiddos don't wait years for permanency.  For us, it looks like it's going to drag on for 4 years of our lives. Yes, I know, just a drop in eternity.

So we continue to hold on and continue to wait for our redemption.   I believe that God will only make us stronger through this. He has has perfect timing and I don't have to know why but I do know that He will do it for our good.

But if you think of us, pray for us.  Cause some days, it feels like we are in line at an amusement park.  One that doesn't seem to be moving but has the "90 minutes from here" signs.  Then they have those that can go upfront with their speedy passes. I know when we get our turn to go on the ride, it will be amazing and worth the wait. 

"And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather"

~Mandisa - Stronger