Refocus

I recently attended a bible lesson that was discussing Mary and Martha. I didn't need a lesson to know that I already more closely related to Martha than Mary. I'm busy making preparations, taking care of kids, serving in the PTO, running errands, going to appointments, taking on whatever my family needs me to. It's hard for me to sit still. It's hard for me to carve out that quiet time to spend with the Lord. When things get quiet, my mind runs to what I have left to do. I believe that what I'm doing is important. Essentially the majority of what I'm doing is taking care of my family.

However, I'm failing at taking time to rest. I'm failing at spending time talking to God and reading His word like I need to be. I'm good at it for a few days, then it falls off my "radar" as I just become too busy. Then I come back to it.

Although I have already been making strives to move my heart in a better direction, and I'm trying to pull closer to God... God is putting out bulletin boards where ever I look. "HELLO ANGIE! YOU NEED TO FOCUS ON ME! YOU NEED TO COME TO ME!". It's reassuring that our God is a God who will pursue us.

As a mother, I think it's really easy to become unbalanced with day to day life. Our priorities can go right out the window depending on how our morning goes. (I know I'm not the only one who has woken up with a child puking!). It's important to watch for the signs that I am running adrift instead of staying anchored to God.

It's important to often refocus or "fine-tune" our focus as we need. I guess it's like dirty glasses. If we don't stop and clean them, we don't see well and things get murky. It's not that God isn't there, but it's fuzzy and harder to see. If we take time to clean off the glasses, we can see how God is with us, helping us, and loving us.