On hold

Before I bat another eyelash, it will be November. Three years since we received our precious twins. It was an exciting time. Becoming a mother for the first time. Getting to know two very special and different people. We invited these kiddos into our home and hearts. We also promised to love them as long as they are ours. No matter how short or long that might be.

For three years, I really put my life on hold now.  I haven't worked at a job.  I have been two busy with therapy appointments, doctor appointments, court hearings, home visits, helping out at school, getting involved in the PTO, and just everything else that has encompassed these three beautiful children. I would do it all over in a heart beat. 

I guess, I just didn't realize how long my life would be "on hold". We have been licensed to be foster parents for more than three years. We now have to renew for another 2 years as it does not seem likely that everything will be finished before our current license expires. I just want to so desperately move on. I'm tired of the same old same old. I want to be able to take a job again without having to clear it with a half dozen other people first. I want to just be able to up and leave to go up north, without having to mention to it to other people. I want to live life without interference. I want to start living again.