From One Frying Pan to Another

I have heard it said, we are either coming out of something or going into something.  Sometimes, we don't really even get to rest in the calm of "the in-between".  It's truly been just a month. God continues to test me, further and further.

We have had a lot of difficult melt downs. The kiddos are weary from waiting. They wanted the decision made as to their future.  Can they grow deep roots here?  Will they have to move again and give up this life that they have created with us?  The judge has said no. He knows the challenges that lay ahead of our family, but we are commitmented to helping these kiddos and loving them.

My  sister adopted her kiddos. They were in the news and the paper. A lot of people joined in the celebration. It was nine months that they had to wait, as we just reached 38 months. I am happy that they didn't have the ongoing months of waiting, of drama, and stress.  I'm happy that they have a "happy ending" and that are a "forever" family. Admittedly, it is a little rough on our family who is still waiting, wondering why ours has to take this long.

But it's about our story.  Our wounds will be healed by God. Our troubles, our stressors, defeated by God.  I've seen so much this week that only God could have overcome.  I felt the overwhelming power of prayer and God's peace with me as the case worker testified that she didn't believe in this TPR.

Now, going to the doctor.... after putting it off because I knew that I wouldn't hear good news.  I learned that I could have an embolism  upstream from my retina artery. My optic nerves are much more swollen.  My doctor is amazed that I haven't had my vision in my left eye affected.  Amazing. God has saved my vision. Now, in to frying pan of trusting the doctors to help me with the pressure building in my head. Trusting them to find the source of this "white spot" on my nerve.

Even though I walk though many storms, God is with me. Blessing me. Drawing me closer to Him.  God has given me strength before, and I know He will be with me until my last breathe giving me strength to continue on.

"How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this"?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now."

God, I need you everyday.